lol so cute right?!
the hottest ticket in town, awesome stuff!*ringsss*
" Are you miss Giggle? ",
the manager started the conversation.
..and alot more..he even read my personal statement infront of my friend.gosh swt, damn swt lorh! ( i have some connection in it, so its easier lolzzz) how would u expect me to answer that question? omg i couldnt believe my friend spoiled my reputation! luckily it was only on the phone -.- man such an embarrassing moment can :S anyway yeayy! i just had my interview yesterday :) quite casual, so which was more of like a chat i would say -.- okay i shall admit that he's really nice.that's why lol and double Yeay yeay! i might be getting that job *pray hard* oh well tho he told me that 8 ppl are now infront of me on the waiting list, but i have higher probability of getting it due to the reasons that he's interested in my availability wheee :) please i want it.
Im not in a need for more $$ (if i appear that way) but i dont mind getting this opportunity expanding my budget :P since..oh well to me, they pay thier employees at a good rate.. approximately aud13? or aud 15? per hour. Just some thoughts flowing within my mind, when searching for a job it always must begin with the end in mind. Job placements success doesnt happen by magic but hmph by making smart..strategic moves to make sure u find the right fit for your interests and ablilities.hmmmm but to come and think of that, its just McD hellooo! haha i know its just McDonalds, but cmon its still a job like any others :)
I cant help but thinking that this is especially important when looking for any jobs, because whether you're working to get initial experience, for a little extra cash, fill up the empty spaces, you want a job that you can do and do well; and you want some level of satisfaction from it. Yesss i want thattt! :) more satisfaction, in life.
oh well, i havent even got that job pls. why am i so excited for? oh if i really am, guys i think ill get sick of Mcd and dare not touch the food ever hahahaaas
p/s: i screw up my small and midsem test, aih damn depressed bout it for the very first time -.- or may be because its not up to my expectations.but i dont know why im so uptight for it! its just like freaking 8 or 10 % ok! grr may be this is just me bah :) anyway, i seriously honestly think that i shld be more serious in my studies, the fact that i now understand why people always say 1st year of uni is usually the honeymoon year :) yes big difference! i am alreaedy putting in some effort but somehow, not enough! more more more nerding! im gonna go pull back all what ive lost man!! damn not satisfieddd. hope its never too late. im really afraid :(
*financial accounting is crap! worse subject ever Dammmnn! you spin my head right round right round wops fits perfectly LOL
toodless, take care all :)
“It's not denial. I'm just selective about the reality I accept.”
- Bill Watterson, Creator of Calvin and Hobbes.
People everywhere from the online entrepreneurs in Qatar to the shoe shines in Gary, Indiana, live in denial without even knowing it. I can't be referring to you, can I? If your gut feeling is, "No way!", then as strange as it may sound you may actually be showing the first signs of living in denial. Denial is something that anyone and everyone is susceptible to. While it won't kill you, it can certainly dampen your day and your life.
hmmm..Does that sound alarming? lol
I don’t know about you, but along my journey called "life" there's been a time or two that I have chosen to pretend (oh i know not like i usually do but..) that the big black elephant sitting across the table from me was really not there. Nor was it stealing my money from me. Or cheating on me. Or robbing my joy from me. Or draining my power from me. Or…oh, you know what I mean. For many years, I had a habit, or perhaps I need to say a survival technique, that whenever a big or painful problem would plop itself on top of me, I would sit under its weight and pretend that “it” was not really there. In truth, I was really just hoping it would go away. But for the sake of my survival, and due to my lack of tools, it was easier to put on a perfect smile and pretend “it” was not happening.
Of course during those years I had people from Normal Land look at me, and some so brazen as to tell me, “What are you STUPID??!!” But there is one thing I have learned about denial. Denial has nothing to do with stupidity. Rather, denial has to do with survival. In fact, denial is a tool we use to get through situations when we do not possess healthier tools to do so otherwise.
Typically,
we live in denial over people we love or situations we’ve placed on pedestals and upon which we’ve built our entire belief systems, financial securities, insecurities, hopes or reputations. To walk out of our denial and face the truth means facing things we do not want to face—our fears, our pain, our abandonment, our anger, our weaknesses, not to mention others who have either built their lives on our denial or are just waiting for us to fail. Quite truthfully, who would want to slip out of denial? Facing the things we have to face is like walking into tidal waves with inner tubes around our waists! Certainly we are not stupid. We know if we go “there,” it might kill us. So, to survive, we instead sit in denial, hoping it will just go away. (oh thats quite true :D)
Even though some might call us stupid, naive or irresponsible, denial is nothing of which to be ashamed. Remember, we slip into it because we do not have the tools to solve crises. The problem, however, is that typically the things we deny exist; they are impending tidal waves that have the power to eventually destroy our lives. When we use denial as a way to “solve” the problem, we are strapping on those inner tubes in the wake of tidal waves. Sure, in the beginning of the storm, we can blissfully float through the situation, letting the inner tubes of denial keep us afloat. But eventually, because crises will only get worse, our inner tubes will form holes and, before we know it, we begin to sink. If you have ever felt like you were drowning or sinking, this is a sign that denial is slipping out of control.
So well i think , if the reality rule says: Living in denial does not really solve problems, how does one start living a more truth-telling life
i am not the "living in denial" person! well at least i think. oh somtimes i just dont admit in things :P but i know im truthful to everyone i love. at least, i know i am capable enough to deal with it.you just gotta give me some time, a little bit more :) and i know i will not choose to live in denial if theres any chance *just bcos i think im straightforward enough hee!* just somtimes when youre down or so, or even when one get you hurt..you just somehow choose not to show? or you are even unsure about your feelings which you dun admit'em all? does that apply to everyone? oh well, not because you dont want them to know, its because you do not wish them to worry about you like if lets say youre not ok, they will go like "har not ok, then how?" there goes another point where you trouble ppl again. Also, i think i always act as if "im okay with everything" that kind of thing like i can handle everything by myself. thats because i do not wish to depend on anyone! i want to depend on myself :) (and that friends claimed that im living in denial wtf?) butt..I am really OK what! lol small small stuffs like that i wont really go bother lorh.haha oh well that only applies ffor certains anyway. because you do not wish to trouble ppl around you therefore you choose to pretend that everything is invisible, but somehow when the pain is up to your throat,where you honestly cant take it anymore. you burst out 1 million times more and theres when i really need someone and nothing is gonna be okay for that moment, but i believe its just gonna take a while, a while only i hope.i do know i mind alot because it keeps bothering me for the past few days, so show me some of your sincerity and genuineness man like seriously. get out from the circle, work out something, make myself happier..then its gonna be okie, because im the "invisible soft hearted" Zink! hahahaha :D
sourly mix feelings,before.so now, things starts working out better, i hope! as long as i can see the effort :)
omgomg im actually quite busybusybusy!
p/s: i miss that so much! they are off for cheng beng this sat, its been few years.
he hates when it comes to taking pics but still, he does it for us! :)
then now..he even somtimes offer us to take pics with him big Wow! lol
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Not many can have a father, Who’s half as great as you.
So that’s why on your birthday,I want to make sure you know,again,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PA!
God bless you always :)
p/s: make sure i see you improve! hee
to all, im fine ppl! :) just a lil rather busy. okie, rushing off!